an adventure from then to now
Hallelujah, we can finally hear
It's a miracle we feel anything at all
Things we planted on the worst days of the year
Grew to fingers that rip at the joy
And set our backs against the wall
Lay your weapons down
Lay your weapons down
There are no enemies in front of you
Hallelujah, we can finally see
How the bitterness was bruising on our skin
We didn't notice that grace had run so thin
Till we're falling apart and the cracks in our hearts let the truth sink in
This morning as i was leaving our apartment, the staff for the complex was handing out ‘breakfast on the go’ bags near the entrance gate. In the grab bag was a banana, an apple, a honey bun, and a juice box. so far all i’ve eaten is the banana, but getting a little gift early in the morning was a cool surprise. Ok, so i’m the lame one who really appreciates ‘breakfast on the go’. Another nice surprise was a little note left for me by my husband near the coffee pot. Troy is great about leaving notes and goofy drawings.
A year ago troy and i were getting geared up for our wedding. Crazy how quickly the time has flown by! I remember lacey trying to go over all the last minute details, trying to get me to do things which she ended up taking care of, like purchasing the sweet ties for all the guys. I laugh thinking about my parents, trying to organize the south dakota details. It’s pretty crazy trying to plan a wedding 1200 miles from where you’re living. And yet with all that being said, the wedding was great, and at the end of the day, troy and i were married with our parent’s blessing. Even tho i kid troy about how i would’ve wanted a different wedding with all the friends and family at the beach, our wedding was just lovely! 10 year anniversary – definitely going to some beach, some where – even if that means a mission trip to Bali! Who knows, maybe we’ll be missionaries on a beach in 10 years!
I love that troy and i are spending our first anniversary on a mission trip, helping people in a foreign country. That delights me. I’m grateful that God has blessed me with a wonderful husband who is willing to travel to a foreign country to spend 9 days working his butt off. That’s love.
So a friend of mine asked me an interesting question yesterday: ‘what could add beauty to your life today?’ then she went on to describing examples like a waterfall, a song, a painting, etc. i answered her by saying that i taken the mail out to the post box and the smell of fresh cut grass took me by surprise. So that was my answer: ‘fresh cut grass adds beauty.’
So what would your answer be? What would add beauty to your life today?
On Good Friday i received a call from an old friend whom I hadn’t talked to in many years. That added beauty to that day.
Saving $18 using coupons on my bill of $42 adds beauty, also.
Anoop being safe for one more week on american idol – beautiful.
Getting an Easter basket from a friend – definitely beautiful.
Getting flowers from my husband – most definitely beautiful.
Having a night at home with my husband added beauty, too. (yet having to watch the tea parties from around the country subtracted a little beauty.)
Current theme of my life:
Romans 12.12 Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.
Re-current phrase:
I did not get married so i could spend my week alone. If i wanted a weekend lover, i could’ve found one of those without the stress of an ex-, kids and in-laws.
So what do those two things say about the state of my life?
tomorrow
...will be the first night this week my husband will be at home.
...will be Good Friday. I would like to go to a service tomorrow evening in observance of the special day.
...will be our Cook-Out during lunch here at work. looking forward to some burgers and dogs from the grill. not looking forward to baking something tonight because my troy is out of town.
...will be rainy.
today
...is payday.
...is cloudy.
...is slow at work.
... is the day i need to work on a scrapbooking project.
yesterday
...was trivia night with some friends. we had a great time catching up on life, even if we didn’t win a the game.
...was sunny.
...held some frustrating moments.
thank you for your prayers and thoughtfulness during this trying time in my life. it’s been a wild rollercoaster ride the last couple of weeks. the clouds still linger, but tomorrow they should dissipate. i’m really hoping the weather clears up because we have a baseball game to go to; pre-season game between the Detroit Tigers and the Atlanta Braves.
it’s expensive to live in
before troy and i got married, i lived without a dryer. my power bill was ½ of what it is now. is a dryer a need or a want, and could i live without using it? now that i have one, i’m not sure i would want to live without it. what else could we do without? because troy is on the road so much, our cell phones get used. i’m not sure i would be content without talking to him when he’s on the road.
eating out. troy looks at food much different than it do. i look at it as a source of nutrients that i need to maintain life. troy looks at it as a masterpiece. he needs to make the food into masterpieces. he’s not content with a bowl of cereal for dinner; that would be fine with me. i would be fine with a can of soup, and he needs to buy each ingredient so the soup is fresh and delicious. our pantry is filled with food - troy says we have nothing to eat, and i see an endless supply of options. so when we go to grocery store together, troy wants to get all the extras to make the food tastes good, and i want to buy the essentials. most of the time troy and i can spend less money eating out with a coupon than what he can to fix a meal at home for himself. a meal for troy costs about 10 dollars a person. a meal eating out for troy and i with my coupons is about 10 bucks. for instance, last night troy and i had swedish meal balls with cabbage and mashed potatoes from Ikea for $10.57. if we were to go to the store to create that meal, it would’ve been way over $10.
too often i forgot that cooking matters so much to troy. it has never been that important to my family. we eat because of necessity, not out of luxury. i didn’t grow up with lots of sweets or food which took hours to prepare. the biggest meal we ever shared was probably thanksgiving, which included a turkey, mashed potatoes, green beans, stovetop stuffing, and maybe a pumpkin pie from the store. troy’s family makes nearly every meal into an event – with someone always pulled away from the family because they are tied up cooking. it’s odd for me to not have everyone sitting around talking while the turkey is cooking.
troy and the kids have had to adjust to making everyone sit together when we eat. it’s important to me that we all take 10 minutes during the meal where we get to look into each other’s eyes, and converse about whatever is going on. the kids are still adjusting eating together as a family, and the hard part is not being able to play with their toys during meal time.
i’m really getting into the John Waller CD: The blessing. Here’s a song from it.
Calling For A Flood by John Waller :
Flood every corner of this room
Flood all the emptiness with You
Lord I long to be consumed
And I'm calling for a flood
So flood every chamber of my heart
Flood what I lack with all You are
I am dry and I am parched
and I'm calling for a flood
I am calling for a flood
Holy spirit fall completely immerse me in you
i'm longing for a flood
A holiness to wash me now
Hear me Lord I'm calling for a flood
Now flood every coner of my mind
and flood everything i'm trying to hide
I'm looking to the sky
and calling for a flood
I am calling for a flood
Holy spirit fall completely immerse me in you
i'm longing for a flood
A holiness to wash me now
Hear me Lord I'm calling for a flood
Submerge me in You in Holy water
Enthralled me to live in you
And flood every corner of this room
And fill all the emptiness with You
Lord we long to be consumed
And we're calling for a flood
We are calling for a flood
Holy spirit fall completely immerse us in You
we're longing for a flood
A holiness to wash us now
Hear us Lord we're calling for
Holiness
We call upon Holiness
So flood this place with holiness
you are holy
Lord immerse us in your
Holiness
We call upon Holiness
So flood this place with holiness
you are holy
Hear us lord we're calling for a flood
We're calling for a flood
Hear us lord we're calling for a flood
tomorrow i’m dragging troy to be cultured. there’s an origami exhibit on the campus of GA tech.
going to a braves game on saturday.
next weekend is Easter.
this friday starts spring break for our boys. looking forward to spending some extra time with them.
tonight is a new episode of lie to me on nbc.
