What's Blog Worthy?

perhaps i'm experiencing writer's block. the words don't come any more. perhaps it's the beautiful let-down after an incredible mountaintop experience. perhaps it's not wanting to allow myself to feel empty and void here in the States. perhaps it's just me being me. perhaps it's my time of sorting out myself and the next steps God has for me. perhaps it's the time when what i've learned from dts need to be implemented into my life. perhaps it's God drawing me thru the desert - again only by His grace. perhaps it's the lack of prayer support - now that i'm back in the States why would i need prayer? perhaps it's the routine or normal-ness of life. perhaps this is the time when i'm need to rely on my friends more than ever before. perhaps i'm feeling a bit depressed tonight. perhaps i'm going thru some weird christian psycho babble theoretical discussion with myself. maybe it's just the battle of sin and grace. as sara groves sings, 'i can't put my finger on the mood; it's not melancholy, anger or the blues...'

it's been an interesting week for me. monday, labor day, i moved into my first, leased apartment. guess i'm all grown up now. i have some great friends who have helped moved my belongings into my place. (i can't tell you how much i'm not enjoying writing 'my'. it's not the african way, and even tho i struggled with that while i was there - i miss that so much. i want things to be 'ours', not 'mine'.) sounds like i'm going through a divorce. pathetic, huh?

so those were my thoughts last night. tonight i'm feeling much better. guess i must've been pretty tired last night. tonight i've driven to the pool in order to connect to the free wifi. love it!

put away some things- mostly i'm overloaded with kitchen items and lacking in livingroom furniture. it's quite a collection right now. i have an old chair with a hassack, a leather office chair, a step stool, and a tv which is sitting on the floor. that's my livingroom furniture. one day i'll get some cool stuff, but for right now those items are working out great.

sitting outside updating this blog tonight reminds me of all those times when i would sit under my mosquito net and type updates. oh the joys of bugs, especially biting ones!

so i've discovered 2 things: one i can bring my computer down here to the pool and use the wife. two, i can go to the gym and watch tv. why do people pay for all those extras? just kidding. i would love to have cable and high speed internet in my house, but for right now i'm just going with what's is being given me for free -- like everything in my apartment. God is gracious, even unto me.

well, that's an update for now. please say a prayer for my friend, japheth's family. one of his cousins died and it was very unexpected. the family is really taking it hard.