timing and sorrow

several things in my life feel out of sync.

i was going to write about how timing feels to linger... then my mind was
filled with a verse which i love and cherish. the verse is Habakkuk 2.3 'For
the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not
prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will
not delay.' guess that's more confirmation that waiting is a good thing;
that patience has its place in this fast-paced world. and i'm not getting my
way, right away, and i'm throwing a tantrum. i want to have more answers, i
want for the bank to make their decision on this house, i want for the
appraiser to get back to us about any extra repairs, i want to know about a
job opportunity for troy, i want to not have to deal with insurance
companies, etc. don't get me started about ex-wives, job changes, loser
ebay-ers, feeling frozen at work, or finances.

there was my rant.

life is just a little overwhelming sometimes.

...a time to search and a time to give up.
...a time to keep and time to throw away.
...a time to kill and a time to heal.
...a time to tear down and a time to build.
...a time to be silent and a time to speak.
...a time to love and a time to hate.
- from ecclesiastes 3

in my daily devotion today it made this statement: 'Discouragement is
disillusioned self-love, and self-love may be love for my devotion to Jesus
-- not love for Jesus Himself.'

Our Father in Heaven,
reveal areas in our lives where we feel discouraged so that You may enter
into those areas with Your redeeming love. give us the grace to let go of
the self-love and grasp onto obedience to You. don't let us remain in our
selfishness any longer. take our lives and let them be, consecrated, Lord to
thee.